"Life isn't about finding yourself, it's about finding who you have been all along"

Wednesday, May 30, 2012


My Dear one,

No man can ever claim you unless he claims you from me. I reserved a man for you who has my heart. Soon, you will know him. I have the perfect time , you are my princess, my daughter. Let no Prince claim you unless he asks for you from my hand. For I am your Father, the king of Kings. You my Princess are worth loving and deserve a prince.

Love, God

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Love my life.

These last few weeks have been fantastic! And for reals, some of the best weeks of my life. Recently, both the stakes in the Star Valley area but their YSA together to form a YSA ward. I was called as the second counselor in the Relief Society and honestly I could'nt be more excited about it! I think it is going to be a very wonderful and rewarding calling. I am excited to get to know new people and expand my talents in a new ward. I am excited for this summer as well! I LOVE summer and I have a gut feeling this is going to be a really good one :) This last weekend was so great! I went to a bonfire and was able to see some friends I hadn't seen for a long time and was able to reminisce and take in the May night sky. There was definetely enough pop and candy to go around! On saturday, I had the oppurtunity to go and judge a queening contest in Evanston where there were only two girls present. It was a great oppurtunity and I really enjoyed learning more. Now, it will be a great oppurtunity for me to grow. I love horses and programs that will help younger girls feel appreciated and beautiful. It was a good day! And an even better day when I got to see my best friend and sister Annie J! I just love her face, and it was really great to meet her lover Tim. We were able to walk around Walmart and talk a little before I had to be headed home. I was so sad that I couldn't stay longer. I miss her so stinking much-she is my sister and best friend and I couldn't be more excited for her and Tim!:) I went to church on Sunday and loved every minute of it! It was wonderful! After church, it was MotHeRs DaY, and we went and took my mom and Grandma Patsey to Dad's Steakhouse. They have the best salad bar in the world. SO good! We went home hung around as a family and then I went to the Shumways to practice my song for a fireside I am singing next Sunday in church. That went well! My life may be a little boring, but right now I am in love with it! I am so content and things are going so well for me right now in every realm of life. . .knock on wood! I can't wait to see what the future has next for me!

Friday, April 27, 2012

I am a Runner

I'm a runner. I'm a runner because I choose to be. I am a runner because I love the way running makes my body feel. I am a runner because I love a challenge. I am a runner because it has gotten me to where I am today. No, it hasn't been easy to push through those miles somedays. It has about put me under, but running and being in charge of who I am has made me stronger. For the first time in my life, I am a better and happier person because of the fullfillment I get out of tying those shoes and hitting the long country roads. One year ago, I was just getting home from Hawaii and I was really just getting into the spirit of running. I had caught the bug but I hadn't quite flew with it yet! I was scared to run hard because of my knee problems. I was scared because I was over weight and I was nervous to run around when people could stare at me. If it was up to me I would sit in my house and hide away from the world. I don't even know who that girl is anymore. I run now for myself. I run for my health, strength and clarity. I run because I feel rejuvinated and more alive. I run because it is who I am. Running has unlocked a part of me I didn't know existed. Now, I want to get up in the morning because I crave the endorphins and the way it makes me feel. I HATE mornings. Not a fan at all, but this part inside me has learned to love them. I am proud of myself now, I am proud to stand and be happy with what I can do. Before I never had the confidence to say this. I am so incredibly happy with who I am now, and for the new found confidence I am finding each and everyday. Thank you running for giving me my life back. Thank you for motivating me to push further in life every single day. I am a runner because a runner was who I was born to be. I may not be the fastest or the leanest, but I do consider myself a runner now. I'll never win a marathon, but I would sure like to try. I'll never run a 4 minute mile but I will do all I can to make it to the next mile. I'm proud of who I am and who I can become. The future has so much in store for me now because of the lifestyle I choose.  Each and everyday I CAN press further, I CAN be stronger. Everyday is a new day, and I can't wait to take it in stride. I'm a runner.
QuOtE FriDaY :)

"You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have."

Saturday, February 4, 2012


Legs. Today I am so very grateful for my legs. I ran 8 miles today in 12 degree weather. My legs carried me there and back, got a little sore, but kept me moving. It's a crazy wonder how amazing they are. I really got thinking about how awesome my wittle wegs are. They have carried me around for 20 years now. They get tired sometimes, but they have never failed me. My head has failed them, but they always keep moving. They have carried me through hard times, they have carried me through proud times. I have resented them sometimes- calling them fat, beating them up to make them look like the world would like. It makes me sick now to look back and see what I was saying to them. They were always there, they never complained, they always kept moving. What if I wasnt blessed with this necessity? What if I was in a wheel chair. It got me thinking to how selfish I have been. I have always over looked them and never thanked them for what they have done for me over my life span. I am SO proud of my legs. Without them, I wouldnt be able to ride my horses, I wouldnt be able to sit and enjoy nature and my many blessings clinging tight to the saddle. I wouldnt have all the amazing memories I have in a dirt arena and throughout my Wyoming mountains without them. I wouldn't be training for my first marathon. I wouldnt have lost 60 pounds. Without my wonderful legs, I wouldnt have believed in myself as much as I do. So today, Thank you legs for believing in me when I had ceased to believe in myself. Thank you for continuing to amaze me each and everyday with what you can do. From today on, I wont let you down. I will be the one carrying you!

Sunday, January 15, 2012

20 years young

On Friday the 13th I turned 20. It was a milestone for me. It was something I had been looking forward to for years and something I was dreading in a way. 20 was the year I would no longer be a teeny bopper and my family likes to say, and I would never be graced with a 1 something. It was bitter-sweet to ring in my 20th but if my 20s are anything like my 10 somethings- I will be one blessed girl. I had to work on my birthday, so we didnt celebrate the day of. We went to Dad's steakhouse last night and I had a yummy salad bar with some chicken tortilla soup (which was fantastic!). Then I had a delicious Lava cake, so good. Good thing I ran 5 miles yesterday for my marathon training or I am pretty sure I would have gained 10 pounds. It was a great Birthday- and I look forward for many more to come!

Monday, December 26, 2011

NOEL and New Years Resolutions

Finally,  a new blog post???? Amazing. Sorry, Ya'll I have been majorly slacking on blogging but TADAH I am going to make this one of my New Years Resolutions to blog more. I am so excited for this next year and seeing what it can bring. 2011 has been one of the best years of my life and I am so thankful for the experiences I have gained but I literally cannot wait for the New year! There are so many wonderful things that happened in 2011 that I would like to sketch down before I loose it all from my memory!
- I started off this year living in Hawaii with some of my best friends and a friend that I honestly call my sister from heaven, Annie. I am so thankful for this girl and all she has done for me- knowingly and un-knowingly. I could not ask for a better example and spirit in my life. She is the strongest person I have met and has the strongest testimony! She is the person I would always look to for strength and the one who I would turn to when times were the hardest! She never complained about a single thing, and always knew exactly what to say for every possible situation. She is everything I thought a best friend could be and so much more. Even though the coming of April separated us, we knew that is wasnt the end of the road! I know she will be my best friend for eternity and I cannot wait to see what the future holds for us Hawaiian sisters :)
-I am so very thankful for my beautiful family and the incredible amount of support they have given me! I dont think they thought Hawaii was the best idea for me and suprisingly enough it was the hardest/most wonderful experience in my life! I was so thankful to come home and see everyone. I know my life wouldnt be the same without them, and the experiences I have come to know.
- I am thankful for my wonderful cousin Terri and all she has done for me. I have always looked up to her for being my role model but when I lived in Hawaii she seemed to have been more of a hero to me which I didnt think was possible to be even more. She watched out for me and helped me realize my own strength when times were hard and seemed impossible. She taught me love of the gospel and myself and always lead with an example. I am so very grateful for her willingness to serve with hope and understanding of what I was going through. She always kept her head up no matter what trials she faced and I learned so much from her example. I am one truly blessed girl to call her my cousin/sister!
-I lost my best friend and horse on December 8th and my world will never be the same. Kitty taught me more than I thought could be taught. She taught me patience, love and loss. She was always there for me when no one else seemed to be and I know without a doubt she knew my points and knew how far to push me to make me better and stronger in all she did. I will never forget the first time I saw her come barreling out of the trailer- all strangly and beautiful at the same time and from that moment on I knew my life would be changed forever. She carried me on her back from the time I was 9 to 19, and lead me to numerous championships, belt buckles and a Jr. Princess and Princess title. We traveled all over the state vying for the next prize competing for the best; starting at 6 am and not setting foot again on the ground until 9 at night or later. It was keeping bobby pins popped into my head, and way too tight jeans. It was glossing her hair, and staying up the night before a show washing, glossing and getting glimmery shirts ready for the next day. It was cleaning stalls to keep her getting trained and taking lessons each and every day. I will miss her more than words can say, but I know when I hear the thunder roar it will be Kittys feet clippity clocking on heavens floor.
Even though there have been some tough times with 2011- there have been even more good times to make it all worthwhile. I can't wait to see what 2012 has in store for me!
I have so many new things that I want to accomplish in 2012. Here is my list!
1. Be to my goal weight- 15-20 more pounds
2. Go to Alaska
3. Run my first Marathon
4. Run my first Half marathon
5. Be closer to my Father in Heaven
6. Learn to play the guitar better and write songs

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Blogging Rut

As of lately, I have been in an awesome blogging rut. I haven't posted in over a month because to tell you the truth, I have been too lazy to. There really hasn't been anything exciting to blog about and so I just haven't. I have been pretty frustrated with my weight as of lately, and I have been fallowing my goals as of the last post to the tee and I have not seen any results. I am feeling good, but I feel like my body hasnt changed. I have to remember things are going to be slow because I am at my last little bit, but it is about putting me UNDER. It is driving me nuts. But this week I am going to start looking at things in a better light and focus a little harder. I am going to give up a few more things and take somethings off the previous list. Normally during the week, I have been running/crossfit on mondays, spinning on tuesdays, kickboxing on weds, spin on thursdays, and run/crossfit on fridays. Saturdays I normally just run or find something worth it to do and rest on Sunday. This week I did just that, and to my dismay, I have gained about 3-4 pounds since I started. I'm just going to have to keep my goal in mind, and push through so I can be what I want which is 10 pounds lighter by Christmas.