T.N.T

Yes, I realize it is wednesday and not tuesday, but I'm going to pretend it is tuesday because I am so stressed I am walking and talking in my sleep and scaring my roommate. 9 more days, 9 more days until I am done with the semester, and I thought my senior year was bad. Anyways, quote time!

"Love anything and your heart will be rung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intach you must give it to no one, not even for a moment. Wrap it carefully around with hobbies and little luxuries, avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the coffin or casket of your selfishness. But, in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken, it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable.

-C.S. Lewis

Bucketlist: 

Go Skydiving, actually go. Don't ride in the car get there, chicken out and leave. Get in the little, rickety plane and jump out into free falling air. 

Last Church Attending Sunday. . .

Today is my last Sunday being in church on the island. It makes my head spin really fast because I know that in 12 short days I will be going home, packing all my belongings into one suitcase and leaving, just like I came. It's a scary thought, because to me it feels like I am starting all over once again. I didn't know that when I boarded the plane to come here in September, I would be so scared to leave and come HOME. It's crazy really. I feel when I go home I am going to have to make a place for myself again, because here is Laie is what I called home, it was the only place I had to feel safe, there was nothing else. Now I am going back to the valley of stars and I can't help but feel hopeless, scared, and anxious. I don't know what is to come in my life for awhile. I'm scared because I know everything has changed so much since I have been there, and here I am jumping head-first into my life again. It's going to be weird, and crazy and beautiful all at the same time. I know the Lord will protect me and bless me when I put my faith in his hands and reach for his light. I would'nt be the person I am today without him holding me and making me a stronger person 3,000 miles away from my family and friends. But you know what? I wouldn't change this crazy journey for anything, and now no matter how scared I am I'm ready to face a new journey and new pathways, and all I have to do is take the first step...

Tuesday Night-Quote and dreams night

I have decided I am going to make Tuesday nights a little different. Even if I am not able to blog as much , I will try and do something every tuesday along with a quote I ran onto and a bucketlist goal as well as a goal for the day/week. I want to inspire people, and I wish these quotes will help you in your life as they do mine. I am really excited about this and hope I can do everything I have on my list. So for the first time. . . Tuesday Night Thoughts (T.N.T) haha. I think it's catchy and I like it :)

"Those who can be truly accounted brave are those who best know the meaning of what is sweet in life and what is terrible, and then go out, unmoved, facing what is to come." - Pericles

Daily/Weekly Goal: 
Find something inspiring, and count your many many blessings for the simple, beautiful, complicated, sweet things in your life.
Bucket-List:
Go to a foreign country, and with my nursing degree, help sick children and their families.

TSUNAMIIIIIIIII!!!

Oh gosh. Where do I even begin with this.... My roomate Annie's dad called her and about 9:30 pm which gave us both a heart attack. He told her about the earthquake that had happened in Japan. Soon after that he said there is a tsunami coming right to Hawaii. So of course, I FREAK! Growing up in little Star Valley you never really imagine you will be in a tsunami, or I mean you could if you really wanted. But I sure didn't. So of course the first thing I do is call my Mom; at around 9:50 pm. She answers a little scared and to add to that first thing I say is, "Mom there is a Tsunami coming to Hawaii." Good job Kad freaking your mom out at one in the morning. She talked to me for a little bit and tried talking down my frazzled nerves. At about 10 pm the first alarm went off. And when I say alarm it's not the little rinky-dink alarms for your car, or your school... this thing is the mother of all alarms. It was high pitched, and constant. So upon hearing this, all my moms soothing went right out the window. I start mumbling while at the same time she is mumbling and the last thing I remember was saying I love you, and throwing things together for a 72 hour kit. Which of course had to include all my little trinkets. By the time I had all my things together, I was out. So there I went trudging through crowds of people. I have honest to goodness never heard so many people freaking out in my life... and which led to my network being completely out of service-which made me phoneless causeing more stress to the dang situation. I made it over to Terri and Reed's (Thank heaven for them). When I got there, they were just kinda chilling out. I thought why aren't they running around with their heads cut off like me? Well, they had been in this situation last year about this time. Terri kept me calm, and gave me a glass of milk while I washed a good half a box of grahm crackers down, which was my only food I brought for the whole 72 hours. Good thinking Kad. Hour after hour went by and next time I knew, I was looking at the TV at 3 am that was expecting the first wave to hit any minute. I sat there out of my mind scared thinking all the worse possible things to happen.... what ifs. What if it's bigger than they think, what if I never see my family again, what if I can't get home? Well, I made it through alive. My heavenly father was by my side keeping me comforted and calm, and I know he did the same for so many others. It made me really believe in miracles, and to open my eyes to what can happen in a split second. So I just want to say, to whoever is reading this, I love you. I care about you. And I am grateful for you in my life, even if I don't tell you enough.:)

I {heart} Today.

Today marks me being in Hawaii for 21 weeks.
Today I have exactly 4 weeks left.
When I look back I can't help but wonder where all my time went. It's so crazy to me to think that only a year ago (in 2 months) I graduated High School, and literally not knowing what was happening with my life.

Today I miss my mom- I miss everything she says to cheer me up and the wonderful woman she is. I took her for granted many times through my teen years, and everything she said I can see why she said them now. She always just wanted the best for me, and I was too caught up in stupid things to see that until now.  I can honestly say she is my best friend and my hero. She has gone through so much and I am so grateful that I was sent here to be her daughter- To learn from her, laugh with her, and cry with her. I am thankful that she trusted me and knew what was in my heart to help me be who I am today. I want to be the mother she is. Someone who is understanding of every circumstance, someone who loves everyone with her whole heart-and sees the best in everyone she comes in contact with. Someday I hope I can measure up to her, and live my life the way she has carried hers through grace and faith in every situation. I never let you know mom how much you mean to me and how amazing of a mother you are-I am so overwelmingly grateful Heavenly Father sent me to your loving arms and I can grow up being loving to myself and others because of your example. I love you mama.

Today I am thankful for my dad- I don't know where I would be in my life without my dad. He is the greatest example of faith, righteousness and loyalty. There were so many times when I needed someone to turn to-and someone to tell me I was wrong or right- I could always trust him with everything I had. Through my HS years, we never really saw eye to eye, and I regret not knowing and learning more about him than just believing that I was right over everything he said. The bad thing is- He was always right. Whenever I would get my heart broken, he didn't get mad cause he knew it was going to happen, he welcomed me with open arms and let me cry. All the times I was scared, nervous, or just needing a little help, he gave me a fathers blessing. I am so blessed to have a dad that was worthy all those times I would wake him up crying in the middle of the night. He didn't ever complain and would just roll out of bed and stumble to the kitchen. He is everything a father should be and more. He loves all of us kids the same, but in many different ways. He has the most humble and sweet heart, and has provided our family with a good life through all his hard work. It was hard sometimes growing up when he wouldn't get home until late from logging, but I know he was making a better life for us with every tree he fell. I never tell you enough dad but Thank you for all you have done for me knowingly and unknowingly-I love you.

Today I am thankful for my brother Andy- He is the greatest example. I sometimes think he should have been the first born because he shows me something loving and valuable everyday. I look up to him so much and have him listed as my hero. I have watched him struggle with his diabetes but he never lets it show. He lives his life everyday to the fullest, and never takes no for an answer. He is a mini-me of my dad and is a hard worker that loves a new challenge. He has the biggest heart of anyone I know. He is always so willing to help a stranger, to help a friend in need with no hesitation. I am so grateful I was blessed with him for my brother- I must have done something right in heaven:) I love you And.