Last Year to New Year.

I know that this is a little late to be posting but since it is still in the month of January I am going to post for the new year and everything that has happened since the beginning of last year. Well at this time last year, I was still a senior in High School and had just turned 18. I was just trying to get through the last semester without catching the crap called "Senioritis"... well too late. I had already gotten that when I first got into High School. Don't get me wrong, I loved High School and being able to make many new memories with new and old friends. The only thing bad about SVHS were the labels that everyone was labeled with. It seemed as when you were labeled something you could never escape it. There were many times that these labels were good and some bad, but in the end you were still branded as to what people thought of you. I was ready to leave, and begin a new me, a new beginning and hope for some new labels and brands that I could give myself before others did. In May 2010, I graduated High School which is such a huge accomplishment and milestone in everyones life. I was caught in many emotions when I graduated, mainly happiness and joy of what was coming and what happened in the past four years. High School was filled with teenage love, heartbreaks, hope, best friends, crappy cars, first day of school clothes, volleyballs, skipping classes and on top of it all, memories that will never be forgotten. I am thankful that I was able to go through High School knowing what people mattered, which didn't, knowing first loves, Prom dates, and being able to look back and smile with regrets that were simply not getting to school on time. I ended high school with no regrets, and an open heart to keep everyone I had loved, liked, and been a best friend to forever.
After graduation, I worked three jobs trying to earn money for the hope that I could come to Hawaii and start anew. I worked everyday through the summer with my CNA, rode my reigner Roy everyday, and soaked up the sun and memories with my friends before we all had to go our separate ways. At the end of the Summer, everyone parted ways and I felt so lost, because I was about to step off a cliff without knowing what was going to happen, no one to catch me at the bottom and a lot of space to fall. But, I made the plunge anyways! I left on September 12, 2010, and nothing on this earth could have prepared me for that day. I walked to the top of the escalator with my family, and all I could do was cry. Everything I had learned in my 18 years were to be tested in the ultimate test. I hugged all my family, and there I went to a whole new place that I knew nothing and no one about. But, all in the moment of hectic craziness, I felt at peace. I knew this is where I was supposed to be, in my life right now. Now here I am, 4 months later, saying that getting on that plane was the best thing I have ever done for myself. I'm thankful that I was scared out of my mind, because in some weird way it made me stronger. I'm thankful for a loving family that trusted me enough to let me go for me. I'm thankful to myself mostly because, I trusted myself to know this is what I needed. So over the past year, it's been crazy, scary, trusting, loving, and beautiful. But you know I wouldn't have it any other way.