Update.

There are quite a few things that need to be updated so here it goes! First off, Disneyland was wonderful and filled with memories and laughs I will never forget! It was so great to be with my family and spend some time together even if it was just for 4 days. I flew into LAX on Weds the 16th at about 5:30 a.m. in the morning which about killed me dead because the time difference made it 3 a.m. in Hawaii. It also didn't help that I had a weirdie sitting next to me. Both of these combos= NO SLEEP for Kadi. Finally, I was able to de-board the plane and try and catch the Disneyland shuttle that would take me to our hotel. I was told the bus would come every hour, but after sitting on the curb for a good 31/2 hours the shuttle finally came:) I was a nervous wreck let me tell you. I was the only one on the bus which made it nice so I could go straight to our hotel. First thing I did when I got there was go to the front desk to see if they could check me in, no luck. Everything was completely booked the night before, and the rest of my family would not be there until 2 that afternoon. So, I looked like the creeper in the corner with my laptop and a book. After about four hours of waiting and me bugging them, they finally had a room clean. Soon after, my family arrived! I got off the elevator and was instantly happy and excited to see the ones I love the most in this world. All the little kids ran up and gave me a huge hug. They were all wearing T-shirts in rememberance of my Grandma June. The shirts were bright neon green so they were not hard to spot! It was so great to see everyone, and my homesickness vanished when I was able to embrace everyone. Soon after putting bags away we went over to Disneyland and because it was pouring rain it was a ghost town, which was WONDERFUL! The whole trip was this way, besides one day which was great to have a little sunshine! Over the next four days, we went to different shows including Aladdin, Bugs Life (hate that show because of the bugs crawling under your butt and the spikes in the back, so of course I was sitting on the edge of my seat; might as well have been the floor!:)) and last World of Color! That show was so neat! I will try to post some of the video and song that was my favorite. I drank way to many hot chocolates, ate a few churros, and had the best Corndog ever! (which is odd because I don't even like Corndogs) It was great to spend some quality time with my dad when we would go and get Fastpass tickets together, and listen to the wisdom of my mom and best friend. I not only went on the Tower of Terror ride one to many times, but also enjoyed the little rides with my cousins such as the "Tea Cups", Small World, and Peter Pan's Flight. Everything was going great, until Waammmooo. Kadi came down with the flu. It was honest to goodness the worst flu I had ever had. So Saturday morning on my last day, I spent the whole morning puking my brains out. But, I got enough strength to later go back. There were a few tears shed, but I had to keep telling myself I will be home in 40 days. I can't wait to be home for Good for awhile. Overall, this trip was one of the greatest memories and experiences that I hope to share with my own family and children someday.

Good Quote

To let go isn't to forget, not to think about or ignore.  it doesn't leave feelings of anger jealousy or regret. Letting go isn't about winning or losing. its not about pride and it's not about how you appear; it's not about obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn't blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn't leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness.    It's not about giving up or giving in. letting go isn't about loss and it's not about defeat.  To let go  is to cherish the memories , but to overcome and move on.  It is having an open mind and confidence in the future.  Letting go is learning , experiencing and growing. to let go is to be thankful for the memories that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow.  its  about all you have , all you had , and all that you will soon gain.  letting go is having the courage to accept chance and the strength to keep moving. letting go is growing up. it is realizing the heart can be the most potent remedy.   to let go is to open a door, to clear a path and set yourself free.

Future.....

...In today already walks tomorrow...

Never Regret yesterday, Life is in you today and YOU make your tomorrow <3

The last few days have been really busy and mostly a blur. I have been so busy with school and work I hardly ever have time to even look in the mirror. The thought struck me the other night... what am I doing? There are people out there that would give anything for just another day, and I am just living it waiting for the next day. How truly blessed are we to have another day to hold onto, another new beginning if we please, another day to tell loved ones we love them, a new day to be someone's miracle? Everyday is a gift, and we can decide what to do with it. How are we going to be remembered when we are gone? Over Christmas break, my heart was opened to see how precious the last days of life are. I was able to be around when my Grandma Mcgavin passed away. It was one of the hardest experiences of my life, but I was blessed to know I had my CNA so I could take care of her. It was so rough somedays and very touching, depressing, eye-opening and humbling. I was able to review memories with her, and really spend quality time with one of my best friends. She was the greatest influence, and hero. She never judged and always taught forgiveness and was the prime example of it. She kept her fight and head up until she passed away as she slept. I miss her so much sometimes it aches, but I am living for her now, and doing the things that would make her proud. I realized when I was taking care of her, how much I loved Nursing. I loved being able to care for her, and see over her well-being. I am so grateful, I was able to decide my future, and I honesty believe she was whispering it to me all along, and even now. Since being back at BYUH I have been taking a Psychology class , and I LOVE IT! It is amazing all the things our brains can do, and getting down to why people behave like they do. I have heard many times that I should be a counselor, and why not combine this with Nursing? So, drumroll please.... I have decided what I want to be; A Psychiatric Nurse. I feel so good about it, and I am ready for the challenge. I want to impact lives, and be someones miracle just like my grandmother did. So today, I am thankful for another shot at life; another day to breathe, live, and see my dreams come true. I'm ready for whatever is coming, because I know she is by my side. Love and miss you Grams.

Greatest Grandma a girl could ask for <3

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;

When troubles come and my heart burdened be;

Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,

Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;

I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;

You raise me up: To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;

I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;

You raise me up: To more than I can be.

There is no life - no life without its hunger;

Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;

But when you come and I am filled with wonder,

Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;

I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;

You raise me up: To more than I can be.

DiSNeYLaND

Ok so I'm a little disappointed to say the Steelers didn't win the Superbowl. Sad day. But oh well there is nothing I can do about it except for cheering them on so they can win next year! Which of course they will. But anyways enough about them... I have been so busy since I have been here for second semester, it seems that I never get a break. It's nuts. I wake up everyday at 7 go to work, school, attempt to get my butt in shape, more school, and then homework the rest of the time. It's pretty sad I am in HAWAII and I never hardly go to the beach cause I never have time. But I made a promise to myself that I will do better, and make time to do things that I love to do, which one of them is blogging, well I guess writing down all my crazy thoughts in my head and trying to put them into words. Today was a great day. Did all the usual things I do everyday, but I kinda took the time to slow down and really enjoy whats around me. It really hit me how short life is and how for the past few years I have just been living it to be here. I do whatever everyone tells me to do, and make sure I never get in trouble. But I figured out that is no way to live. I'm ready and on my way to becoming the woman I want to be. I am thankful for all the people in my life that have influenced me for the good and the bad. I know that I would never be where I am today without them. It has been the best thing ever to be here on my own and have to dig down deep to find why I am so guarded and why I am scared to fully live, but I have figured it out and now I am ready to give life a run for it's money. Which I have and I want to do while I am still here for a month and a half. It's sad, and I am going to miss so many great people that have brought me not only closer to the church, but have found a very special place in my heart. I will never forget how they have impacted my life here. Anyways, next week I am very excited because I will be going to DISNEYLAND!YAY! I am sooooo excited I could just die! I love Disneyland and yes I may sound like a little kid, but there is just a special feeling there like nowhere else, where you can go back to memories and live like a little kid for just a day with no worries in the world. I will be leaving next tuesday (a week from today) and staying until Sunday! I can't wait to see all my family! My grandma is doing this for all of us. It actually started that my Grandma McGavin before she died but away some money for a family vaca to take all of us, and well now we are all going to enjoy it together! I can't wait. :)

Good Day with a little BLACK and YELLOW!!!!

Today was a good day. Went to Hukilau beach, got almost swept out to sea by a humongous wave, and got my face fried. Good day though. And you know what tomorrow is going to be even better! The Steelers (the greatest team in the history of the Universe) are playing in the SuPeRbOwL! Oh.my.gosh. I am sooooo excited. I am so glad I was raised in a family that made me deicide in order to become an Erickson you must be an avid Steelers fan. Welp. I loved them anyways. But it's going to be a little different this year. Instead of taking in Andy's screaming to the T.V. and my dad jumping up and down when Big Ben throws a pass, I will be doing the same, but without the smell of moms famous wings and lovely cheesecake bites! But I am stoked anyways. Now all I need is a dose of Polamalu's lucious locks, and a Terrible towel and I will be the greatest Steelers fan there ever was. Now they better win, or Pittsburg will see a rage they have never seen!

Let's Go Steelers!!!         Classy- what I like to see haha!                                                         

GrAtEfuL

Today, I'm grateful and very blessed. I have the greatest family, friends and a wonderful life. I just thought to myself as I was walking around campus how did I get so lucky? This earth we live in is beautiful! For the first time in a long time, I'm feeling great about where my life is going and finally beginning to see how my hard work has paid off. There are so many amazing things that we take for granted every day, like the smell of the air, and the sights we are able to see. So long story short, I'm feeling blessed today, or maybe just recognizing it. I've always been blessed, just thought I wasn't good enough to deserve it. I love my life and everyone in it! Thank you to everyone that has made my life a heaven on earth and made me the person who I am today, love you all! Here is a Pict of how my day felt today, like a new sunset. Somehow we see it everyday, but it always seems to be different. It may be hazy, vibrant, or lazy but it always comes up. Just like us, we always raise and fall with the sun, and live within its light. We are all so lucky! So here are some Pict's that make me happy every time I see them, each of these hold a special place in my heart and always will. These are my favorite places to be and live, and I will always be eternally grateful. <3