Future.....

...In today already walks tomorrow...

Never Regret yesterday, Life is in you today and YOU make your tomorrow <3

The last few days have been really busy and mostly a blur. I have been so busy with school and work I hardly ever have time to even look in the mirror. The thought struck me the other night... what am I doing? There are people out there that would give anything for just another day, and I am just living it waiting for the next day. How truly blessed are we to have another day to hold onto, another new beginning if we please, another day to tell loved ones we love them, a new day to be someone's miracle? Everyday is a gift, and we can decide what to do with it. How are we going to be remembered when we are gone? Over Christmas break, my heart was opened to see how precious the last days of life are. I was able to be around when my Grandma Mcgavin passed away. It was one of the hardest experiences of my life, but I was blessed to know I had my CNA so I could take care of her. It was so rough somedays and very touching, depressing, eye-opening and humbling. I was able to review memories with her, and really spend quality time with one of my best friends. She was the greatest influence, and hero. She never judged and always taught forgiveness and was the prime example of it. She kept her fight and head up until she passed away as she slept. I miss her so much sometimes it aches, but I am living for her now, and doing the things that would make her proud. I realized when I was taking care of her, how much I loved Nursing. I loved being able to care for her, and see over her well-being. I am so grateful, I was able to decide my future, and I honesty believe she was whispering it to me all along, and even now. Since being back at BYUH I have been taking a Psychology class , and I LOVE IT! It is amazing all the things our brains can do, and getting down to why people behave like they do. I have heard many times that I should be a counselor, and why not combine this with Nursing? So, drumroll please.... I have decided what I want to be; A Psychiatric Nurse. I feel so good about it, and I am ready for the challenge. I want to impact lives, and be someones miracle just like my grandmother did. So today, I am thankful for another shot at life; another day to breathe, live, and see my dreams come true. I'm ready for whatever is coming, because I know she is by my side. Love and miss you Grams.

Greatest Grandma a girl could ask for <3

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;

When troubles come and my heart burdened be;

Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,

Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;

I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;

You raise me up: To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;

I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;

You raise me up: To more than I can be.

There is no life - no life without its hunger;

Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;

But when you come and I am filled with wonder,

Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;

I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;

You raise me up: To more than I can be.